Monday, July 28, 2008

MOON SISTER

Annika and I are beginning another adoption journey. The first brought us together and made us a family. We have been together for 4 years, since she was 8 months old. The time feels right to add to our family. Annika's birthname is Altynai, which means Golden Moon, so we are waiting for a Moon Sister.

Tuesday, July 8, 2008

It begins again....


I started the paperwork today for my daughter...for Annika's Sister. I am not sure what inspired me, but despite having many things to do, I mailed my application for my homestudy, my updated autobiography and a check to my home study agency. When I started filling out the check, I realized it is July 8, my dad's birthday, and believe perhaps he was nudging me (as he always did) to get moving!

I am amazed at the difference in the feelings as one begins the process for a second child. My primary emotion is fear! I want to do this, but the reality of being a mom, that was not present during the first magical process is oh so prevalent. My fear is not of being able to manage 2 or love 2, but the finances and the true reality of 2 and managing that! When I adopted Annika, I had a safety net...my dad and a supportive family. My dad is no longer here and my family is far away. Sometimes I feel like Triple A is my only safety net (and they don't help with child care)!

So I will proceed slowly and cautiously and enjoy the process and see where it takes our family!